..A little bit REALLY does go a long way [ =

I realized yesterday after buying some pretty dyed flowers to set on our kitchen table & after baking a batch of cookies for my man, and after we took an hour to make dinner together -- that I LOVEEEEE every single little thing about my day! it really doesn't take much to make me smile! -- even just a simple convo or a sweet text will make my day!


Today we went a hugeee grocery run! I tried to use what coupons I could find, since we both are saving for our trip to Florida in May. But it still was like $150! Seems like a lot to me! But I try!


On april 1st we are going to an art show opening! I'm soo excited to get dressed up and see Jes in a suit coat! ooo [ =

The b/f is on the phone with his mom, and i'm pretty much not allowed to talk; thus these random ramblings on this blog right now! I'm not just one of those annoying girls who says his mom doesn't like me, with tons of reasons as to why she shouldn't, she REALLY doesn't like me. And has NO reason not to. My fam treats him VERY well [his mom moved to montana to 'find herself'], but when she hears hes spending a weekend with my fam she says stuff like 'i'm glad you like to spend soo much time with cyndis' family'..then he feels horrible and gets put in a bad mood. This woman has gone as far as to tell him in front of me when we mentioned wanting to buy a camper together -- we enjoy camping as much as we can-- & right away she said ' you need to get this with your brother, its not a good idea to go in this together, you need to keep it in the family jesper...[then touched my arm & said]...you understand...' i was soooo sooo shocked! She will even tell me my shirts are tooo low cut - what was soo low cut you ask? a BIKINI!!!!! Just insane where this woman takes things; i've always taken the high road, my mom has always said don't let the actions of someone falter who you really are. So when shes in town i am soo soo nice to her. She cried in my car telling Jesper hes changed since he met me, that she NEEDS to talk to him more than 2x's a week, she doesn't feel like they have a relationship anymore. Yet; i am always the one telling him he should call her so her feelings aren't hurt, or buying a gift for him to send to her for her bday & xmas and mothers day[this year i didn't remind him on her bday, and he just sent her an e-card the day of] -- all he ever says is 'i'm not in the mood..' when I remind him, his mom will guilt him and make him feel like crud if he isn't IN contact with her the way she feels is good enough or whatever.

Because of this, i have vowed if i get blessed to have a kid or two. i will NEVER make their significant others feel uncomfortable in MY presence...EVER!

wheww feels good to get that off my mind for a bit.
haha my cat truely is a great form of free entertainment -- on days off, i throw paper balls for him to catch, he sounds like thunder running up and down the stairs! I love it - how did i live without an animal in my house before? hmm [ =


xoxo
Cyndi

.I am definately not 21 anymore!.

Hello!

I haven't updated in soo long, because last week felt like there weren't enough days to catch up with everything!!
St Pattys' Day was sooo much fun! I started a green beer trend at this bar. This guy randomly hit on me while my man was checking out sweatshirts at this bar. K; picture a night at the roxbury type of swagger, with the hand motions with some guy smelling like reefer saying "sooooo uhhh; do you maybe come here often?" i cracked up and looked beyond him to jesper as he was like woah whats going on. So i told him i was there with my bf. In that case he asked the bartender to show him what tattoos she was hiding under her shirt......RIGHT!


The bar we were at has the best atmosphere ever! U can see the ocean from outside, and literally a man in his 40s walked up once to order a beer with his 4 year old daughter, then again with his 6 week old son!! There was a guy at the bar with his dog sitting at a barstool next to him! really great bar!!

The weekend i got to see , literally, one of my favorite people ever! My cousin Liz! Gosh; she is amazing; and super sweet, super down to earth! She wanted me to take her bar hopping where i grew up [in Fresno] ..she gave her facebook and # out to a few people, while my boyfriend was our DD for the nite! gosh; we stayed out till 3:30 ish; i had to take her to her gpas house where she was staying, and I had to drive back to my moms house; where my family gently let me and the beef know they stay awake or on the couch till we got home![i guess parents will ALWAYS be parents!] Then i fell asleep around 4 am & had to get up at 9 AM for a bridal shower the next day! ahhhhhh I can't believe i used to party till 5am; work from 8 - 3; then go out again that night! I'm sooo not 21 anymore! haha

I am soo glad I got to spend time with my mom and my gparents, since my mom had her brain hemmorrage; it has meant alot to me to see how she is improving and to make her smile when I can; though she cried when I packed my car to leave -- which made me sob for part of the drive home!


I said a very long goodbye to the dog i've had since i was 12-Mandy- I picked her up and she felt very fragile, the doctors say she has an in operable tumor on her brain, and she is going blind in one eye! soooo sad to see! she was there to settle me down as i needed to walk her around fresno while fighting with a friend, or finding out the guy i dated in HS had cheated for the millionth time! It will be hard to know when she does go!

My right wrist is sprained really bad; and at least 3xs its size! I went to the doctor and got a wrap for it! He said to take it easy, but in reality, the day i got home from the doctor, the boy asked me to make 4 cheese sandwhiches for him for his snowboarding outside of fresno on saturday while i was at the shower - so i did ; he asked me to do the dishes - so i did ; he asked me to make sure my car was ready to pack for fresno-so i did; the rents needed help in fresno - so i helped them whenever i could! My wrist just throbs! It doesn't feel good pretty much daily!

Thats about all!
I think i'm going to go see what this Armoured movie is all about

xoxo
Cyndi

. If i were a boy. . . . .

last night felt like an absolute living hell.in every single sense of the word. I won't go into details -- but i can't help it if i am not okay when a man of mine checks out another woman while i'm in the middle of a conversation with him! Nor am i not okay when that said man wants to get his teeth cleaned/whitened what not by a 'family friend' whome he stated he was attacted to at a few points in our relationship -- and frankly if she took back a guy who cheated on her more than once -- i feel that the thought will have crossed her mind do to it to him! we're only human! I can't help that i find that dis respectful at all!

Anyways; i said/did things i'm not proud of - again - i won't go into detail. It just sux that the b/f and i are once again at the bottom of this HUGE hill we have to climb....again .

It was soooooo hott today. We wanted to go tan on the beach , haha well I wanted to tan..but when we were out just driving somewhere i was sweating my bootie off...soo i settle for a movie [Management with jennifer anniston] & a bloody beer under a fan with the beef!!

I also; thanfully talked to my favorite cousin tonite! you know how when u see someone calling, u just smile? shes amazing && knows how to make you feel up when you're totally down about everything! I can't wait to see her friday for drinks & sat at the bridal shower, then dinner saturday nite!!! [ =

I have to get going. I need to make dinner, as the bf is lost in a game of call of duty online with some 13 y/o kids & the cat still has yet to be fed even though he has climbed up to jespers neck to get the attention hes been wanting! if the cat has to work that hard, just think of the hoops i jump thru?!

I can't wait to see American Idol tonight; and millionare matchmaker, get lost in some reality tv drama, that is not my life!

xoxo nite

i LIVE for weekends!!

I was soo excited how sunny it ended up being all weekend! Usually - its sunny m-f during the work week but when i want to go out and enjoy the weather on the weekends it has been storming! It felt like such a rare treat this weekend!!!


Saturday I went on this 8.5 mile bike ride! Easy ride to the restaurant on the beach -- but man on the way home, there are three humungo hills that you have to ride up! we were totally lazy and dropped onto the couch and didn't move for like two hours when we got home! haha needless to say it was a very lazy nite!

We rented movies & we wanted to see "everybodys' fine" OMG i cried the ENTIRE TWO HOURS!!!!! i have no idea why! poor jesper was laughing this uncomfortable laugh while holding me telling me its okay![no its not my time of the month!!]

oh! while we were having lunch this cute little cotton tail decided to pay us a visit! while i stole a few photos!! [ =



Sunday the beef woke up with the sun to go surf - i opted to sleep in & he jumped back in bed with me at like 9 when he got home then i woke up to see it was 2PM!! [which was really 3 pm because of the time change!!] I was shocked we had slept that long! so we went to grub at this well known place on the main street called "the spot" where we saw ALAN THICKE you know the guy from growing pains and other shows! he was there with his fam..jes had done some work on his house - so the guy waved hi from afar while other people that were there noticed kept staring at us lol! I've said since i moved to this area almost two years ago that i wanted to have a celebrity sighting and i finally did! Too bad it wasn't OPRAH or a Kardashian -- someone i'd want an autograph from! oh well! haha

I didn't want monday morning to come! I've had a horrible headache all day & i knew the beef would be working late to help a family friend install the kitchen they built for them into their first home! So I have been cleaning the house from the lazyness of the weekend & will start something for dinner for him when he gets home -- i'm also kind of thinking st pattys day cookies? hmmm [ =

thats all for now!
happy monday

The cats' meow [ =

[pic of zeus fave past time = bath time--yah right!]

sitting here; enjoying my morning alone with our cat; I realized, how fast life is going to take off in the next couple of weeks! i'm nervous; but yet soo excited to try soo many different things! Before the beef left to go help his gparents out with his dad and his bro; we played in our room throwing paper 'balls' downstairs for the cat. Zeus would happily run them as fast as he could right back to us....a cat that plays fetch? seriously.

.next weekend i'll be in fresno; back to where i grew up; with my family and my favorite cousin liz..for another cousins bridal shower.
.then Easter Weekend we will be in morro bay; at my grandparents beach town.
.then the week later, my fam is visiting us here for a few days in the middle of the week.
.then the weekend of april 30th; it is not only my bday - but the weekend my cousin is getting married -- so we will be in san diego.
.then 3 weeks after that Jes & i board a plane [i'm scared shitless to fly btw] to miami florida. He turns 30 in may; and we are spending it going to miami & the florida keys! I'm excited; yet extremely nervous! I can't wait to just be OFF the plane and be there! haha

Has anyone ever been extremely proud after a meal they've cooked!?! I NEVER thought i would be the one to be in the kitchen to cook elaborate meals at least 4 x's a week; or making salsa from scratch just to see a smile on my mans face! But since Jes n i have been together -- that was one thing we ALWAYS have done together & have kind of bonded and grown with = cooking. Last night [after spending over $150 in groceries] we came home & made caprece salad , with farfelli noodles, with a white and red sauce [mix em together] & added garlic to the pasta sauce! Along with some buttered bread - mmMMmmMmmMMmm mMMM Mm!

[here is a pic of the caprece salad]

...also shown is a pic of my favorite plates we bought together.
I feel i need to give some back story before I say what I wanted to say next.
My man was married before we met; he asked her just because they were together since hs it was the thing to do he said; and a year into it she cheated on him! Since, i've moved to 'his' town, we've been 'nesting' as Jes would say; and since then, he has thrown out allllllllll of the plates, silverware, etc. that he had with his ex wifey! It was great to see him let go of it all & for us to go shopping together - settling on the plates above with black bowls for soup & what not, and new glasses for vino and for water, tea , sodas, new silver ware AND new cookware! -- maybe all this is why i love being in the kitchen now!! [ =

Hopefully he will get home in time to have an 8 mile bike ride to our fave place to have lunch directly on the beach! if not; i guess its a movie & pizza nite.

Welcome!

Hi;
My name is Cyndi
I'm 25.
i just moved to a beautiful beach town [carpinteria] so my boyfriend of almost 3 years [can i get a yeeeah!] could be closer to the busines he owns with his dad.
I'm a medical student
i love medical billing; and am finishing medical assisting classes
I would LOVE to work in a plastic surgeons office! Plastic surgery amazes me; and i am soo intrigued by the things that talented doctors could do , not only to transform, but help say a burn victim or something! amazing what technology has done!
We live with our 'cat child' ZEUS; i love him to death!


Well; this isn't really my first blog post; but all of a sudden my other one didn't show the 'layout' button so i could make it look better than it did at first. Its okay to bitch some right ? [ =


[a pic of where i live]